"Hey Gavin whats going on? I mean you've been posting a lot and they are all kinda bitter and sucky. Are you O.K.?"

NO no I'm not O fuckin' K!

I'm bitter and hateful at the moment. I'm working through some problems and hitting roadblocks at every turn.

First off. I don't like any form of mass entertainment.
Lets get that straight.
I dont like movies. I don't like music, T.V., plays, docutainment featurettes, shadow puppets or ponyrides.
What I do like is to tear them apart bit by bit and tear those little bits into a million smaller bits and then throw the whole thing away.
Thats my thing. Thats what I do.
Remember that next time you think you have something in common with me. I may like what you like but for a very different reason. I like to HATE IT!
There I feel better already.

I have not been feeling good for about a month now. I'm still without insurance and a little thing put a big scare into me last week. Ya see I got this little spider bite on my ankle. It started out like a little bump then it got bigger and then it turned into this giant open non-healing wound. It was this 1/4 hole with a giant red circle around it. It looked like the spider was trying to create some sort of golf course on my leg. It started to really hurt and not heal. My fear was I was bitten by some sort of kill ya slow spider. I showed it to someone at work who pointed out the wound looked a little green and suggested I get it checked out.
I agree I should get it checked out. But where? I would have to take a whole day off to go to a community hospital. I cant afford that. It explains why I have been sleeping poorly and when I do I wake up in a sweat. So I have been alternating with neosprin and alcohol. and it seems to be clearing up. It still looks gruesome but eh... what can ya do. The good thing is its healing up and I didn't have to go rushing off to the doctor. The bad thing is IF it was something I needed to get checked out I would have been at a very big loss on where to get that done.


So thats it. I've turned into a dick because of a spiderbite? NOOOOOOoooo.
Thats not it.
I'm having other troubles too. I guess I want to tell you that but not tell you what they are.
How odd is that?